You broke my fridge!

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I feel like I’m drowning, I really do. I know most people my age are in the same boat, and I’m really not trying to grab attention or pester people for sympathy. I just want somewhere I can spew all of this all out because I feel unbelievably over-loaded. I didn’t realise how much more stressed I’d feel this year. I am trying and trying to keep up with this years work, and at the same time, trying to mend the bloody mistakes I made last year. And I literally feel like I can’t escape it all. I’m doing awful in everything and I’m working my bloody arse off to try and mend it all. I don’t know how much more work I can do. I rewrite my notes, I teach myself topics, I make posters, I do all my homework and set tasks on time, I turn up everyday for lessons, I turn up everyday when I don’t have lessons to work. I don’t know what I can do any more to make things right. I just wish now I had an extra year to do it all, to take some time out and think about what I have to do but I don’t even have that, because I literally cannot stand to stay in this house any more. I know I feel like I’m constantly moaning- and I pretty much am- but I can’t help it. I can tell people are wanting me to get a grip but there’s only so much I can keep to myself without going insane. I can’t talk to my family because they don’t understand going through exams or going to university. Everyone else I talk to has their own problems too, and I in no way want to be burderning them with my own. I just wish there was an easy way out, or at least something I could do to make this all a bit easier. Because I’m not sensing a fun rest-of-year.

sighhhhhh of relief I think.
sorry guys xoxox